Yesterday we went to the library's Halloween storytime.
Wesley kept going back and forth between being a dinosaur and a superhero.
Finally, as we were about to leave with his superhero costume,
he dissolved into tears because he had changed his mind and wanted to be a dinosaur again.
"I want to be something SCARY!!" he said.
Evidently the "scary" theme of Halloween has sunken in,
even though that's not the direction we take with it!
Speaking of scary, motherhood has the potential to bring with it a great deal of anxiety.
I've always had an active imagination,
and lately my imagination seems to be in morbid mode.
I have these vivid scenarios come to mind of my children dying in painful, gruesome ways...
right down to the heartwrenching words that would be said at their funeral.
I also have a lot of anxiety about my abilities as a mother,
as the primary caregiver of these precious spirits,
and I find myself fixated on mistakes I've made in the past.
It's absurd, and I try not to dwell on negative thoughts,
but every once in a while motherhood seems to be haunted with them.
Crazy dreams at night add to horrible thoughts during the day.
While I'm grateful such thoughts help me not take my children for granted,
it's obviously not a peaceful place to be in.
So I decided to study fear in the scriptures.
And goodness, how enlightening, insightful, and motivating such a study has been!
I love this quote from the Bible Dictionary:
"Fear is...something unworthy of a child of God."
There is something comforting about reading the words "fear not" repeatedly in scripture.
"Wherefore, be of good cheer, and do not fear, for I the Lord am with you, and will stand by you."
Supporting scriptures are numerous.
(Find a list here.)
I hope you all have a lovely Halloween weekend--
we look forward to the day's festivities!